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I could sit in my chair by the window and think for hours. “Why did God make me? What is my purpose in this life? Do I know, love and serve God as I ought? What are my primary responsibilities in life? Do I fulfil those responsibilities? What else should I be doing with my life? If I died tonight, what would I think of my life? What would God think of my life? What will my death look like? What will my judgement look like? What motivates me to ask these questions? How could I make my business better? Do I care about material goods too much or not enough? What is my retirement plan? Do I want to start another business? How could I make the world a better place? What does God want of me? Should I stop asking so many questions and just be content? But what does that word even mean? We can’t be perfectly content in this life because this isn’t our true home. We weren’t made for this world, and yet we live in it, so how can we be satisfied? But at the same time it is God’s Will that we live in this world, so how could we be unsatisfied if we are fulfilling God’s Will? In what does happiness consist?”

I could (and do) go on. Sometimes these thoughts produce a good result and draw me closer to God, but sometimes they leave me restless and uneasy. There are so many answers that I don’t have.

The other day I had a new thought – perhaps I simply leave all of this to God and focus all my energies on loving Him and making reparation to Him. Maybe I think about myself too much and need to spend more time thinking about God. If my heart is troubled, His Heart has suffered infinitely more. If my poor wretched and miserable heart longs for comfort and consolation, how much more must His Heart desire the same thing. Perhaps I should decide to make comforting the Sacred Heart my entire mission. If He desires me to do any new thing with my life, He must make it known to me.

I resolve to not think about myself so much, and to spend more time comforting and consoling the Sacred Heart of Jesus – that Heart which has loved so much and is so little loved in return. All for Thee, Most Sacred Heart of Jesus.